This is Goodbye
Posted by Deutlich on June 28th, 2009 | Filed under: UncategorizedI keep re-writing this post in a vain attempt to say something profound. But I think you and I can agree that lately, there’s just been nothing profound to come from Speak On It.
I started this blog as a way to communciate with likeminded people. As a way to be justified in the way I thought about things. As a way to feel important to more people than I already am.
For a while, I found what I was looking for. Then I came back to the realization that the people who’ll always have my back are none other than my family, lifelong friends and me. I had begun to put entirely too much emphasis on folks that weren’t much more than internet personas.
What kind of bugs me was my need for this crutch. Which is what the blogging community had become for me. You can’t really rely on people you don’t know. Right?
Right.
Regardless, I’ve met some really amazing people. I found myself in an actual relationship thanks in part to this blog. I’ve visited places I’ve never been before, like Cleveland and Pittsburgh, and I’ve spent countless hours reading, writing and responding thanks to this blog.
I’ve also spent too many hours worrying about this blog. About the readers. About the comment count. About the content. About the people I met through this place. About what was being said about me. About what was not being said about me. About how I should proceed with x, y & z. About how I should write. About how I should think.
So on and so forth. It’s pretty damn exhausting and I’m looking forward to the break.
I wish all of y’all well.
Take good care of yourselves and thank you for the laughs and the smiles. I appreciate it more than I can say.
-Deutlich
June 28th, 2009 at 8:48 pm
OMG! This is so sad – I will miss you! I was planning on featuring your blog tomorrow. I still will because your design IS my favorite. I always come here for inspiration from you and your blog. I may not always comment but I’m here. I hope you come back soon.
xoxo
Aw, well thank you Julie. I really appreciate that.
June 28th, 2009 at 8:51 pm
God bless you.
Ditto.
June 28th, 2009 at 8:53 pm
Goddammit EVERYONE IS DYING.
But really – I enjoyed your blog a lot and I’m sad to see it go, though I understand. Speak On It will be missed greatly in my Google Reader.
I’m sorry, love! This has been a long, long time coming. And thank you very much.
June 28th, 2009 at 9:08 pm
Is there something in the water that’s causing the blog shut down?
I really enjoyed reading your blog. Actually, I’m glad I met you and hope to see you again.
Just so you know, you put out some pretty awesome posts. A lot of them actually. And yup, I’ll miss them!
I’m not sure about the water, but for me this has been on my mind for at least six months. Either way, I am DAMN glad I met you. You are fantabulous!
June 28th, 2009 at 9:15 pm
It’s sad to see you go, but we completely understand. Girl, real life is where it’s at. I’ll miss you!
Real life really IS where it’s at. Thankfully. And I’ll miss you too, doll.
June 28th, 2009 at 10:34 pm
Oh no, not you too..I feel so devastated right now but I get it how complicated and stressing it can be sometimes. I hope you find what you look for, and maybe write again. I’ll really miss you and your posts.
Thank you sweetie.
June 29th, 2009 at 12:50 am
I’ll miss your blog. …. ´but I’ve seen this coming for a couple of weeks.
Good luck for all future challenges, I’ll keep you in my thoughts. And I’ll keep the website bookmarked, you never know…..
Yeah, it’s definitely been building for a while. And thank you dear. I’ll keep you in my thoughts as well.
June 29th, 2009 at 2:07 am
That is so sad. I really enjoy reading about your view of the world.
But I do kind of see where you’re coming from.
Take care x
You too hon.
June 29th, 2009 at 2:43 am
I’m looking forward to the break
This better just be a break….I’m keeping you in my reader…just for when you decide to come back.
Don’t hold your breath, hon. And hey – at least you and I can hang out and shoot the shit. Yanno?
June 29th, 2009 at 3:47 am
I’m sorry to read this. Why worry about traffic and comments, though? Write for yourself.
I think I already explained that bit. And frankly, if I wanted to “write for myself” I’d have a diary or journal. I don’t really believe people who blog write for themselves. At all.
June 29th, 2009 at 4:27 am
I am only coping with this because I know that I can email or gchat you up. Otherwise I would be in a very bad place.
Yess!! And dangit, one day we WILL meet.
June 29th, 2009 at 4:35 am
Lordy. Dropping like flies.
We shall miss you.
Thanks, love.
June 29th, 2009 at 4:49 am
I’ll miss you, D.
I appreciate that hon. By a lot.
June 29th, 2009 at 4:57 am
I like how we both bowed out at pretty much the same moment. Good luck going forward.
You too, hon. You too!
PS: Obviously, great minds think alike.
June 29th, 2009 at 4:58 am
Your blog always blew me away with its honesty. I’m going to miss it, but you have to do what’s best for you. Glad to meet you when you came to Pittsburgh!
I’m really glad I got to meet you too. And thank you for your kind words regarding the honesty. Means a whole heck of a lot.
June 29th, 2009 at 5:17 am
NNNOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!! FIRST SURVING MYSELF NOW THIS???? WHY, GOD, WHY???? I’M RUNNING OUT OF BLOGS TO READ!!!!
Er, I mean, take care, B. I’m gonna miss you.
I know, hon. I’m sorry! I’ll still be “around”… sort’ve.. just not blogging.
June 29th, 2009 at 5:25 am
While I’m really sad to see the end of a literary era, I’m glad to think that it’s part of your moving onward in life to whatever lies next.
Do what you need, Deutlich, and thank you so much for all the entertaining/musing/deep/not-so-deep/TMI/touching/inspirational reads.
I’ll have fond memories of following your writing.
Wishing you flow, pax and all the good things //Cessie
Uhm.. you’re gonna make me cry! But thank you for those kind words.
June 29th, 2009 at 5:27 am
Sadness
I’m sorry dear.
June 29th, 2009 at 5:56 am
It will be sad to see you go, I’m glad you realized why you blog and that in the end you gotta do things for yourself not for others.
I wish you the best of luck and maybe we’ll see you around these parts in the future- because it’s never really goodbye, but see you later!
It is DEFINITELY see you later! You’re not THAT far from me. And I’ll be out & about for DC blogger shenanigans.. so long as I’m still invited. Haha.
June 29th, 2009 at 5:57 am
This is only okay because I still have you IRL.
xoxo
Ha! YES for being in close vicinity!
June 29th, 2009 at 6:00 am
I still luv ya!
Likewise!
June 29th, 2009 at 6:46 am
I am sporting a HUGE sad face. I’ve been a longtime reader (even though I only started leaving comments earlier this year) and I can’t tell you how much I have appreciated your honesty on a number of controversial topics.
NOBODY tells it like you do. NOfreakinBODY.
But I guess I have to be mature and accept your decision (I have to get the pouting out the way first). Best of luck and hopefully you’ll decide to pop up and guest post for someone in the future.
Oh man.. you’re gonna bring tears to my eyes. Thank you so much. Sincerely. Thank you.
June 29th, 2009 at 6:52 am
well son of a bitch!
I has a sad now.
I’m sorry, love.
June 29th, 2009 at 7:09 am
I hope you understand that not being able to comment here means we’ll just have to start texting you more often.
I hope you know that I absolutely welcome this.
June 29th, 2009 at 7:13 am
ill miss your posts, lady. best of luck to you and keep in touch! hope to meet you one day soon.
me too!
June 29th, 2009 at 7:26 am
I’ve enjoyed your posts–a good intersection of blunt and provocative. (By the way “blunt” is a compliment in my world.)
I am a big believer in bloggers doing what they feel is right, regardless of what other people say. That said, you can always come back if you change your mind.
Thank you, dear. By a lot.
June 29th, 2009 at 7:27 am
I expect BSB updates on facebook then… and we need to do another Arlington happy hour!
Yess!
June 29th, 2009 at 7:40 am
Congrats on the decision and on putting out consistently engaging writing for so long. You’ll be missed.
Unless Germany beats Argentina again next year. The I’ll probably never speak to you again.
Ivan. I have been warning you for months that Germany will whoop Argentina. You should just brace yourself for the fall out now.
June 29th, 2009 at 7:44 am
What in the world???
It seems that a ton of bloggers have decided to shut down their blogs this weekend. What is going on???
I wish you the very best! You’ll be missed.
I realize that the connectivity may not make much sense, but for me it was MJ’s death. I mean, I’ve been mulling this over since November and I kept pushing and pushing and it was pretty much all crap because of it. And my deep rooted desire to be embraced by a community that can be both very giving and very, very cruel just sort’ve did me in. Life’s too short.
June 29th, 2009 at 7:57 am
I’m so sad to see you go, you are one of the blogs that I have consistently read since joining the blogging world. I love your honesty and I’m glad you were honest with yourself when you felt it was time to go. You will be dearly missed but I hope to till see you around, even if its not on the blog!
Aw, sweetie – thank you. And I’m sure our paths will cross some day.
June 29th, 2009 at 8:01 am
Awww sad to see you go!! Please keep in touch. And hopefully I’ll see you in NYC again
Definitely!
June 29th, 2009 at 8:08 am
I’m sorry we haven’t met yet. And I still hope that we eventually do!
I’ll miss your blog.
I’ll miss you.
June 29th, 2009 at 8:12 am
Oh lady, I understand, but still…*tear*
But I better still be seeing you!
You will!!
June 29th, 2009 at 8:34 am
DUDE! WTF!! uh, i mean… i understand and support your decision. but… wah.
But at least I still get to see you out & about! Right? Right.
June 29th, 2009 at 8:38 am
Aw Lady, I’ll miss you. <3
I’d say the same but I’m still gonna be readin’ yer blog. Hee! But thank you sweetie.
June 29th, 2009 at 9:38 am
Does this mean I’m not getting a goodie box around the holidays? Way to ruin Christmas.
Kidding – I’ve loved your blog and also the conversation it stimulated in your comments. Hope you make your way to Cleveland once again so we can meet. Then we can get Alexa embarrassingly drunk and post pictures on FB.
I like this plan of embarrassing Alexa pictures. Let’s do it. Hey! Maybe we can photograph her in pink, or blue! OR GREEN! Or WHITE!
.. I know. I know.
Pipe dream.
June 29th, 2009 at 9:53 am
Your blog was one of the first that I put in my “faves” folder in Google Reader.
I’m definitely going to miss the posts that caused commenting wars. A lot. Reading them made me feel Less Crazy.
Now, who the hell am I going to read? Who’s gonna keep me sane?
NooOOoOoOOOoo …
But I understand
Thank God for other social networks.
Oh, man – YES! So glad I still get to stay in touch with folks!
June 29th, 2009 at 10:07 am
i’ll miss you =)
I’ll miss you too.
June 29th, 2009 at 10:11 am
I will miss your posts. But I can understand what you’re doing (I’ve been thinking about it, well, at least stop writing publicly). Take care, and I hope to read something from you again one day!
I wish you the best in figuring out which step you’d like to take next. And thank you.
June 29th, 2009 at 10:38 am
boo
June 29th, 2009 at 11:28 am
See you on the flip side… Take care
You too, dear!
June 29th, 2009 at 1:43 pm
I met you in person before I started reading your blog and have since read you every day (or every time you posted). I’m selfishly sorry that I won’t have the pleasure of reading your wonderful posts anymore, but as someone who’s taken MANY breaks and quit and then came back, I absolutely understand the need to quit. Best of luck, you will be missed.
I’m glad you’re local so we can hang out in the future.
June 29th, 2009 at 2:37 pm
oh please you will definitely be missed. in case you didn’t already know that.
June 29th, 2009 at 2:38 pm
er i can’t type. it’s supposed to say “please know you will definitely be missed. in case you didn’t know that already.” oh my brain is mush. and i miss your blogging already.
My brain is mush 99% of the time as well. And thank you, hon.
June 29th, 2009 at 3:31 pm
sad to hear you’re peacing out!
i’ll miss your quirky, always entertaining posts! all the best =)
Thanks, Gemma!
June 29th, 2009 at 3:43 pm
Gah. Another one bites the dust. And I just FOUND you. But do your thing, what you need to do. Just please don’t stop writing entirely – you have a gift! <3
You’re sweet. Thank you.
June 29th, 2009 at 4:21 pm
Man, I hope it wasn’t something I said… er… read. I just discovered your little slice of the Internet not that long ago!
Regardless, best wishes in whatever the future holds!
Definitely nothing that you did, my dear. And thank you very much!
June 29th, 2009 at 5:23 pm
Wait so is this a break or the official end? No Twitter or blogging now? I completely understand needing a break. I’ll miss you and am keeping you in here in case you’re lured back.
It’s an official end. No blog nor twitter for Deutlich. And thank you.
June 29th, 2009 at 5:26 pm
I’m a loyal reader, less loyal commenter….you will be missed!
Thank you, hon.
June 29th, 2009 at 8:24 pm
Great. I find you on your final blog entry. Your words were poignant and meaningful. I would have been a loyal reader. Are you on Twitter? I found you via Wearing Mascara. How very sad for me, but exciting for you! Carry on with your life…and Be Well. In some cultures, reading the 50th entry to a blog post ensures one of eternal life and prosperity. Sure. See? I would have been a fun regular…alas….please get on twitter if you aren’t already…at least it’s SOME kind of connection.
I had a Twitter for Deutlich before.. but I deleted it. And I think it best it stay that way. I’m sorry hon. Wish you the best!
June 29th, 2009 at 10:29 pm
WE’LL MISS YOU AND HOPE YOU COME BACK ……Cheers to an amazing blog!
Thank you, hon. And likewise (about the amazing blog part)!
June 30th, 2009 at 4:14 am
Oh hon, I’m so sorry to see you go. I’m thankful that we got to meet and drink beers bigger than our heads and I hope to see you around my parts every now and then. Best of luck and love to you.
Thank you sweetheart. I’m glad I met you as well. By a lot.
June 30th, 2009 at 4:31 am
Just wondering…when you stop blogging, is it rather a relieve (getting rid of some burden), or withdrawal (… having to resist the urge to blog)?. Maybe both.
Absolute relief.
June 30th, 2009 at 4:35 am
Another one bites the dust. I hope you’ll be happier w/o the blog and that your google reader will stop giving you panic attacks
Thankfully, I stopped letting the Greader get to me a lil’ while back.. but I am definitely relieved to be done with this.
June 30th, 2009 at 8:22 am
I’m sorry to see you go. I’ve enjoyed reading your words and am happy you were willing to share your thoughts with us for so long. As much as I’ll miss reading here, I’m glad you’re at a place where you’re seeing good things in your life. Take care of yourself!
June 30th, 2009 at 9:02 am
Wow, you gotta do what’s right for you but I’m glad that you were here on the internet and you shared your stories with us on your blog. Your writing is amazing and speaks to people in a way that is beautiful, creative and rare. I love how you’ve shown both your strength and your vulnerability on this blog and I know you’ve definately inspired me at many points. Thanks for everything and best wishes
June 30th, 2009 at 9:51 am
Sorry to read that you are shutting down. Like others, I have read your blog for a while and have appreciated your honesty. While this may be the “end”, it could also be the beginning of a whole new adventure for you. Sometimes letting go of something we cherish can open doors for us beyond our imagination. Good luck!
Gil
June 30th, 2009 at 10:58 am
Sad face. I’m going to miss the way you don’t play around and say exactly what’s on your heart and mind. I am so glad that I’ve been able to meet you and hang out w/ you. I can still get my Deutlich fix!
June 30th, 2009 at 11:31 am
I always read, rarely comment, but will really miss your posts. I have always admired your honesty.
June 30th, 2009 at 11:40 am
if it wasn’t for this blog of yours we never would have been friends and for that i’m thankful for it’s existence.
i’m also thankful that we can still be friends without it’s existence.
play on sister.
xoxo
June 30th, 2009 at 11:47 am
I loved your blog. Hopefully one day I’ll make it over there and meet you for reals – for now, FB!
Thanks for the thoughts
xxxxxx
June 30th, 2009 at 7:01 pm
July 1st, 2009 at 5:44 am
Chiming in late but with feelings that echo the voices of others above. I’ll miss your voice but wish you nothing but the best.
July 1st, 2009 at 4:27 pm
Oh! I shall miss you. As an internet persona, thanks for all the great posts!
July 2nd, 2009 at 6:24 am
I can relate to every single bit of this. Just last night, I was stressed about how I haven’t had as many comments lately.
Then I kicked myself for being so ridiculously petty and stupid.
There’s so much I could say about all of this – but I applaud you for being brave. Seriously. I am so weak.
July 2nd, 2009 at 7:03 am
Now that hair doll I made while you were sleeping is a collector’s item! (Stay in touch, lady!)
July 2nd, 2009 at 9:23 pm
I’m a relatively new reader and am sad to see you stop blogging. I do understand the “why” but that doesn’t make it any less sad.
I enjoyed your honesty and willingness/ability to look at yourself.
All of the best to you!
July 3rd, 2009 at 8:31 pm
I’ve been a visitor for quite some time now and although I just started a new blog, I’m already toying with getting rid of it. I totally understand where you are coming from though. Go on and enjoy life!
As it’s already been a million times, you will be missed in the blogosphere.
July 4th, 2009 at 9:37 pm
you know what, good for you. i did the same thing a while back. when it’s more chore than fun– it’s not worth it. it doesn’t mean your not a fantastic writer or don’t have interesting things to say! you’re great and i wish you all the best!
July 5th, 2009 at 7:16 am
Well, boo. I can completely understand your reasoning, but… boo.
I am moving you into the “Come Back!” folder in my Google reader. I really have one. Nice, comfy spots for blogs gone silent so I will know when they start talking again. So I’ll be listening for you
)
July 6th, 2009 at 8:24 am
Fare thee well darling.
July 6th, 2009 at 10:17 am
Take care! Hope to see you on the blogosphere again soon!:)
July 7th, 2009 at 1:54 am
I only found your blog recently, but I’ve enjoyed reading it. I also understand your need to move on from it. I wish you happiness.
July 9th, 2009 at 1:12 pm
Hi doll. I’m a little behind, but I understand. I’m struggling to come back, too. However, I am glad that I had the chance to meet you through this silly little world. Much love.
July 12th, 2009 at 8:46 am
The connectedness of blogging still amazes me. We’ll always be here if you decide to come back.
July 15th, 2009 at 11:41 am
*sigh* well, of course you’ll be missed, but again, please keep this blog up for posterity. i think people can learn a lot from it like i have.