I’m Coming Out
Posted by Deutlich on February 18th, 2009 | Filed under: UncategorizedNo, I’m not coming out of the closet. I already blogged about my disinterest in being labeled as straight or bisexual. Sometimes I just happen to like sexy time with girls.
Is that so bad?
What I am doing is showing my face. I’m not sure why I’ve held on so tight to my “anonymity.” I mean, at this point if you’re facebook friends with any of the bloggers I’ve met in the last year – there’s a fairly distinct chance you already DO know what the hell I look like.
My biggest fear to date has been that someone would figure out where I work, email my coworkers and then “out” me. Just typing that has my heart racing because what happens if I just gave somebody an idea?! What if one of you hates me that badly that they’d stoop to such levels?
Then I remembered that, hey, I don’t blog about work. In fact, I will never blog about work. Maybe a situation here or there, but nothing that gives a definitive idea of what I do or where I make my money. I have no interest in being Dooced. More importantly, the folks I work with already know that I blog. Only three know where, but I haven’t been secretive about the act itself.
I don’t do secrets.
Besides, if you are reading this blog, there is a 95% chance that you own a blog too. And you wouldn’t want someone doing that shit to you, right? Right.
Mayhaps I’ll regret this decision tomorrow and delete the post all together. Maybe this turns out to be a much smaller deal than I’m making it out to be. Or perhaps in a few months when I’ve forgotten all about posting this particular blog, my boss will come to my cubie with a print out of the things I’ve said here in my corner of the web.
Dear gods-that-I-don’t-believe-in,
Please, please, please do not let my boss come to me with any of this because I will have the worst panic attack of my life.
Also, if you could just get rid of all web tracking software – that would be killer.
Much love,
Deutlich
Anyhoodle. Enough with the talking. Uhh… I mean writing.
This was taken at my 27th birthday party in December. We went bowling. I wore the dress anyway.
This is me fucking with Jack. Just because I can.
That’s my eyeball…just in case you couldn’t tell. This is a gratuitous shot of my eye make up. Because I’m vain (but not really).
And that’s my super fantastical mom and brother. I think their expressions speak volumes. My mom would freak out if she knew I’d posted a picture of her on my blog. Don’t tell her.
February 18th, 2009 at 4:48 pm
I wont tell her.
Even though I LOVE that picture of your mom
I appreciate your candidness.
February 18th, 2009 at 4:52 pm
I’ve seen you before but I must say that I love your smile
Awww..you’re sweet. And thank you.
February 18th, 2009 at 4:52 pm
Aha! So that’s why so many posts about eye makeup were showing up in my Google Reader shared items.
Totally. I LOOOOVE eye make up. It’s a bit ridiculous.
February 18th, 2009 at 4:54 pm
Well hello there!
Hi!!!!
February 18th, 2009 at 4:54 pm
you’re beautiful nice to see you
well aren’t you just a sweetheart. And thank you!
February 18th, 2009 at 4:59 pm
Before you even said it I was thinking “I’ve already seen so many pictures of her on facebook.” Hahah. Well hopefully you feel like you’re getting something off your chest and not that you’re increasing your chances of blogging coming back to bite you in the ass.
Where the hell can you be found on FB?! AND, yeesss..I hope this won’t come back to bite me in the ass either. That would fucking suck.
February 18th, 2009 at 5:08 pm
You are one hot lady (as is your mama) and this new blog look you’ve got going? It’s killer. Sorry I’ve been buried in my reader for a century and a half.
Aww, you’re such a sweetheart. And good grief I understand the google reader problem. I have to kill that number daily or I break out in hives.
February 18th, 2009 at 5:08 pm
Beautiful girl and beautiful family!
Oh and heart the eye makeup big time!
Well, thank you! Big time!
February 18th, 2009 at 5:08 pm
Forgive me for using out-dated SNL catchphrases, but you look marvelous!
I wouldn’t have known it was outdated SNL catchphrases but thank you none the less!
February 18th, 2009 at 5:10 pm
I wish wish WISH I could do my eye makeup like that!!
They have tutorials all over youtube! The biggest tip I can give is blend, blend, blend. Nobody likes choppy eyshadow. Blech.
February 18th, 2009 at 5:19 pm
I must say it is a pretty big step!!
Though really, if someone does that to you, I’ll go beat her (yes, because only women can take hating that far) until she regrets it.
PS. You’re GORGEOUS woman!!
Of COURSE it would end up being a chick. So here’s to me keeping my fingers and toes crossed. And seriously? Thank you… although now i’m blushing. A lot.
February 18th, 2009 at 5:24 pm
i know where you live! (heavy breathing)
you crack me the fuck up. oh – and LIKEWISE, missy :p
February 18th, 2009 at 5:25 pm
You are just as I imagined, but only more beautiful. You have a beautiful smile. Your mom and bro are gorgeous as well. The eye makeup is a killer. Where did you learn to do that?!? I am such a klutz when it comes to applying anything on my face besides soap. Love ya girl. You certainly got it going on! :^)
I reealllyy don’t take compliments well but I thank you none the less. And I DO agree about my mom and bro, though.
As for the eye make up, I was shown by a professional what looks best on my eyes, as far as shaping and contrast, and I apply the same theory to just about all colors that I use. I also worked in the cosmetics dept for many years during the Holidays..and then copied what I saw and liked.
February 18th, 2009 at 5:31 pm
I’m totally telling your mom.
Also, will you do my eye makeup next time we go out? I promise not to cry and ruin it!
I can definitely try my best. Sometimes, I’m no good at doing other people’s eyes because their eyelids and brows are so different from mine.
February 18th, 2009 at 5:39 pm
So beautiful. I wish I was as brave as you!!
And the pictures are gorgeous – amazing make up! My gosh!
You’re too kind. thank you! And from what I can tell – you’re gorgeous.
February 18th, 2009 at 5:44 pm
As nice as these photos are, you’re still better looking in person.
You know juuust what to say to make this chick smile (and blush). Thank you.
February 18th, 2009 at 5:51 pm
Your eye makeup is amazing… PLEEEEEAAAASE teach me!
I will do my aaaabsolute best! But I gotta be honest – I suck at doing other people’s eyes.
February 18th, 2009 at 6:09 pm
Your eye makeup is super ferocious…and you are so cute! I love your curls
Woo! Thaaanks.
February 18th, 2009 at 6:15 pm
You’re a hot piece of ass!
I will definitely have to say it, even though it’s been said. Your eye makeup was fierce! Damn girl!
Well, I’s appreciate that!
February 18th, 2009 at 6:26 pm
I really love that dress on you. M-E-O-W. Your makeup is fierce too.
Heee…well thank you much, Jess.
February 18th, 2009 at 6:38 pm
Okay, I have figured out that as payment for me allowing you to sleep at my house you shall do my eye makeup for the 20sb events. Seriously.
I’m quite all right with this plan. I just hope I don’t make your eyes look crrraaazzyy.. *fingers crossed*
February 18th, 2009 at 6:38 pm
I started out non-anonymous, so now I feel like I can never go undercover; besides, creating an anonymous blog that the people close to me don’t know about would cut my readership to say…5! At the same time, I feel very limited when I want to talk about certain events (esp love stuff). Sux either way. HOWEVER, I feel more interested in bloggers when I can put a picture with the face.
So speaking of THAT, you are beautiful. (And I feel unoriginal, b/c that’s what I thought, and now I see everyone else has said so here, too. Must mean it’s true.) Congrats on this brave step out of visual anonymity.
Awww.. I <3 you. And that is something I feel too – that I tend to be more interested when know what the eff they look like. Not ALWAYS, but mostly. If someone writes REALLY well then it trumps their anonymity, you know? And I’m sorry that you feel limited. I’m gonna stick w/my fake name … just because that makes me less squeamish. I’m hoping this doesn’t stop me from being as honest as I have — but I somehow doubt it.
February 18th, 2009 at 6:46 pm
You will now be known as The Fierce Family because you’re all hot. And I love that eye makeup, I’d look like my 5 year old niece painted my face if I tried that.
But 5 year olds have talent too… it could be a statement!
February 18th, 2009 at 6:51 pm
Woo woo sexy mama!!!
Aww, thanks.
February 18th, 2009 at 6:54 pm
girl you look HOT. scratch that you look HOTT.
yes, with two T’s.
i’m glad you did this, don’t you feel relief now??
I do! I do! I do! Well, relief sprinkled with a bit of trepidation. That’s what I get for being too fucking open in this blog. We’ll see.
February 18th, 2009 at 7:06 pm
You have such sweet smile!!!
thank you, darling
February 18th, 2009 at 7:23 pm
You’re a hawtie! And… I’m in lust with your eye makeup… I thought I was the only person who took pictures of my super-awesome eye-makeup days, clearly I am not and that ROCKS.
that is fantastical that you take pix like that too…mainly because now I don’t feel QUITE so vain. hahaha
February 18th, 2009 at 7:39 pm
Welcome to the out club.
Your secrets are still safe.
I sure hope that they are! And thanks!
February 18th, 2009 at 8:06 pm
You are gorgeous! And I mean that in the most straight way possible.
By the way, LOVE the eye makeup. If I ever tried to apply what you have on…well let’s just say I would make babies cry.
Sometimes babies just need to cry
February 18th, 2009 at 8:10 pm
Nice to see you! Your pictures are so fun, you are beautiful and you are an artist with that eye makeup, wow. Seriously, how did you do that?
YEARS of practice. I was shown by someone who worked in cosmetics how to contour my eyes and apply different shades to my eyelid.. and I’ve been mimicking the process since then with every color imaginable — AND I watch a ton of tutorials and read make up blogs…
February 18th, 2009 at 8:28 pm
You are hot stuff. And I have to chime in with the admiration of the makeup skills! When I try to do that it’s like a drunk five year old attacked my face with crayons.
And now I’m reading other comments and seeing that other people have written pretty much the exact same thing…ah well!
crayons can be good! we all gotta start somewhere. I used to look like I got punched in the face….
February 18th, 2009 at 8:38 pm
a.) I love that your gchat status alerts me when I need to come check your blog
b.) Killer eyeshadow!!
c.) Lookin’ good lady! Lookin’ gooood…
1) I love that you even READ my gchat alerts
2) Thanks!!
3) Triple thaaanks!!
February 18th, 2009 at 8:56 pm
You’re hotttttttttttttt, you shouldn’t go anon in the first place
. Well I guess you had your reasons but I’m so glad you finally coming out.
Aw, well thank you. My main reason was me being a big SCAREDY CAT
February 18th, 2009 at 9:07 pm
Am I weird if I first noticed the glasses? Love them. As do the dress and eye makeup and the necklace.
Aww re: pic with the fams. Your brother’s expression is cracking me up.
Not weird at all. I always notice the glasses too because I am SUCH a fan of them. And the bro? Best bro eva.
February 18th, 2009 at 9:41 pm
that is an amazing dress and i would have done the same thing. they should make bowling heels.
I’d bet I’d fall in those
February 18th, 2009 at 10:06 pm
You are Stunning and Vivacious!Rrrrawr.
The dress and the eyemakeup aren’t bad either
haahahaha. thankyas!
February 18th, 2009 at 10:15 pm
teach me how to do eye-makeup like that!
also, KICKASS dress. i want.
I can try my best? But I definitely recommend checking out youtube tutorials for your eye shape
February 18th, 2009 at 11:09 pm
I think you can rest assured that if anyone messed with you because you blog, you’d have a very angry mob of geeks grabbing their pitchforks (I’m more of a torch guy myself)
Aw. Well thank you – I still worry though. Maybe unnecessarily. But I worry none the less.
February 19th, 2009 at 12:40 am
Your eye makeup is amazing. It reminds me of the Hello Kitty for MAC makeup that I’m currently obsessed with. I promise not to tell your mother about the picture (:
I ALMOST went and got the Hello Kitty make up except the majority of it resembles what I already own. Meh.
February 19th, 2009 at 5:14 am
I do love the fact that your eyes match your dress! Very, Very nice.
I do appreciate that.
Thaaank you
February 19th, 2009 at 6:18 am
I love that you’re wearing a tiara in the last picture! You’re smokin’ hot, lady.
I miss that thing! I left it in my friend’s car who lives in VA Beach… so it’s about 3 hours south of me.
February 19th, 2009 at 6:51 am
You are beautiful! I started out anonymously as well, and then one day I woke up decided I felt like putting my picture out there. It was freeing in a way. Thanks for sharing!
It really is very freeing. I like it. So far.
February 19th, 2009 at 7:11 am
Very cute!
thanks!
February 19th, 2009 at 7:34 am
Your make up is amazing in that photo but you knew I would say that.
I <3 you. But you knew I’d say that.
February 19th, 2009 at 7:42 am
[Name redacted by Deutlich] and family looking hawt!
Awww.. you’re sweet. I MISS YOU!
February 19th, 2009 at 8:01 am
and the veil is lifted! congrats. i missed a lot yesterday.
well thanks, dearie!
February 19th, 2009 at 8:39 am
Yay for coming out! See, it wasn’t so bad, right?
You know? It really wasn’t.. not yet anyway.
February 19th, 2009 at 8:47 am
You’re really beautiful. And I won’t spill your secrets, I still don’t know your name! Haha.
And like about everyone else, I envy you for your mad makeup skills!
Thanks for keeping mum
February 19th, 2009 at 9:03 am
I’m one of the lucky ones who has met you in person
And who says you can’t go bowling in a hot dress anyway?
Nobody – and if somebody does..well..screw ‘em!
February 19th, 2009 at 10:08 am
Hooray for being OUT!!! Big ups, lady.
Thanks, love!
February 19th, 2009 at 10:13 am
Holy wow, your eye makeup is amazing. I wish I could do that (or be courageous enough to wear it out), but Asian eyes seem to confuse this Asian a bit. I’ll learn one day
And I believe that I saw a picture of you before you moved over before you took the link down. Lovely dress, by the way!
One of the make up blogs I read ALL the time is written by an Asian girl! You should google NecessaryMakeup (it’s a blogspot)
February 19th, 2009 at 10:40 am
i’m glad you finally “came out”, but i knew you were gorgeous already!
MICHELLLLLEEEEE!!!! I MISS YOUR BLOG! *ahem* Come bbbbbbbbbaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaack!
February 19th, 2009 at 10:52 am
I am too stunned by your makeup. WOW. I am so freaking impressed right now (and by your beauty of course)
Aww, well thank you darling!
February 19th, 2009 at 11:36 am
woo! yay for coming out. i heart you and your sexy dress and eyemakeup (did you do that yourself?!)
I totally did!
February 19th, 2009 at 11:50 am
nice tiara!
thanks!
February 19th, 2009 at 12:11 pm
Dear Deutlich,
I already knew this from the aforementioned Facebook, but I had not told you yet.
You are hot.
That is all.
xoxo
You’re making me blush!
February 19th, 2009 at 12:36 pm
That eye looks killer. Do you do makeovers?
I suck at makeovers. Go fig.
February 19th, 2009 at 12:58 pm
YOU ARE HOT! I completely forgot that you haven’t shown your face on here before… isn’t it kind of scary and exhilarating all at the same time? Good for you!
It is TOTALLY scary AND exhilerating
February 19th, 2009 at 1:17 pm
I’m sure other people have said this (but I didn’t read other comments yet) but I LOVE the eye makeup. What do you use (brandwise and tools-wise) and what’s your technique? I am an eye makeup whore (I always have to have some kind of eyeliner and mascara on) and love getting tips from other people who are obviously good with the eye makeup.
Also, you? Very gorgeous!
I used a combo of MAC, Lancome and CG with my Lancome liquid foundation as a base. As for tools? I have 10 different eye shadow brushes – bigger ones for sweeping across the brow, smaller ones for the crease and normal ones for the rest… and then I do a crap ton of blending.
February 19th, 2009 at 3:07 pm
I wanna join the coming out party! How exciting. You’re beautiful and seem to relish life! I think you should rest easy. You do blogging right. What boss wouldn’t be proud of you even if they were to find out?!
Eh, I can’t really imagine my boss being “proud” of any of this. But I see what you’re sayin. Let’s hope that keeping my blog name one thing, and my real name a whole other, keeps shit in check. I figure if nobody work related that googles my name can find my blog – things are probably all right.
Or at least I hope.
February 19th, 2009 at 3:53 pm
That is some gorgeous eye makeup! And that dress is absolutely stunning!
Well, thanks Lily!
February 19th, 2009 at 5:18 pm
Well, you’re nothing like I imagined, but you’re very attractive. Not that I imagined you as ugly, lol, but I didn’t picture the glasses, and for some reason, I thought your hair would be straight. *shrugs* Well, anyway, thank you so much for putting a face to a name. I can now forgive you for the Backstreet Boys. : )
I find it kind of amusing that I wasn’t what you imagined. I do that with some folks too.. But straight hair?! Hahaha. That’s the kicker.
February 19th, 2009 at 6:23 pm
Ohh sexy lady!! I hope that is the killer dress you were talking about!!
Weehoo about coming out! Good for you
It IS the dress!!!
February 19th, 2009 at 7:25 pm
you should have came out sooner, fun and expressive photos and i’m jealous of the eye makeup! I only have cool designs like that when my friend Stef is in town and she applies it for me
That’s why friends are fantastic
February 19th, 2009 at 11:08 pm
Sometimes I forget you were anonymous because we’ve been friends on Facebook for so long, ha.
Ha! Gotta love FB. And ya know? I think you were the first (or at least one of the first) bloggers I friended on FB.
February 20th, 2009 at 4:16 am
Why, hello there hottie!
You look fabulous, and I love the eyes!!!
Thanks hon!
February 20th, 2009 at 5:01 am
Well, how does it feel?
Naked? Maybe you like that.
Nervous? Don’t be.
What am I saying…I use the name Bogart.
It’s still odd. And I’m gonna stick with Deutlich. Makes me happy.
February 20th, 2009 at 5:44 am
That is gorgeous eye makeup. Congrats on being “out!”
Thanks, dear!
February 20th, 2009 at 7:12 am
ohhhhhhhhh fun, I love your dress! And you are Very pretty!!!
Well thank you dear!
February 20th, 2009 at 8:57 am
Bowling in a dress is priceless
I really like your glasses… they work very well with your facial structure. Glasses are awesome!
That last picture is just awesome. The expression on you mom’s face is indescribably hilarious, and your brother just looks classic mischievous. I love it.
(P.S. thanks for the wonderful comment!)
You’re very welcome, dear
February 20th, 2009 at 11:00 am
One day, I hope to make a post this brave.
I can totally understand holding on to the anonymity.
February 20th, 2009 at 12:43 pm
Hey pretty lady!
I just started reading, but now I totally know who you are! 
Well, welcome to my neck of the interweb woods.
February 20th, 2009 at 3:55 pm
OH! So that’s what you look like!
Pretty pretty. I love your eyemake-up skillz. Totally hot.
Aw, thanks doll!!!
February 20th, 2009 at 7:11 pm
ahhh. i love it!! while there is something to be said for preserving a grain of anonymity whilst blogging, i’ve always thought that putting a name with the face made it all the more real. congrats on “coming out” and btw you’re gorgeous.
and so is your eye makeup! ;]
yeah, to an extent I felt a lil’ like I was somehow being “dishonest” or “ingenuine” or something
February 21st, 2009 at 8:11 am
I am having trouble posting comments so my initial attempt was way more excited but now I’m just frustrated with my computer.
But HOORAY! And I’m so proud of you! Coming out is huge! Welcome to non-anonymity, girl!
I HATE when that happens! And thank you!!!
February 21st, 2009 at 3:13 pm
I was never anonymous…everyone knows everything about me! It’s not so bad really…you’ll get used to it. Good luck!
Eh.. we’ll see. But thanks!
February 21st, 2009 at 9:58 pm
Your dress and your elaborate eye make up is to kill for! And ‘coming out’ with it is most relieving. (Pat pat)
B
Well thanks!
February 22nd, 2009 at 6:18 am
love love love love love the eye make-up
Hahaha. That’s awesome and thaaaanks!
February 22nd, 2009 at 9:56 am
1) Rock that tiaraaaaa!
2) Damn all you bloggers with big boobs… I WANT SOME!! NOOO FAIIIRRRR!!!!
3) You are hot and have good fashions.
You can’t have mine, though. I’m really attached to them. (my boobs, that is)
February 22nd, 2009 at 1:16 pm
I am still in the training for putting on Eye Make Up! I love yours!
Youtube tutorials are stellar. I don’t really use them because I have NO attention span but from what I gather they’re fantastic
February 22nd, 2009 at 5:56 pm
Wow. If I had eye-makeup that spectacular I’d post photos, too. Did you do it yourself? I only ask because whenever I have a big event (such as my 27th birthday, which was also in Dec) I sneak to the nearest makeup counter and buy something so they’ll give me a free makeover. Works every time.
I have control issues and I don’t like random (read: weird) people touching my face. So I definitely do all my own make up.
February 23rd, 2009 at 8:40 pm
Yessssssss.be out! lol hot stuff, not only did you wear a dress bowling but you wore a tiara.awesome.love it.I had a tiara on my bday too.ahhh so vain are we…anyway, happy extra belated..;p
MsP
March 20th, 2009 at 8:52 pm
OMG you’re so pretty! I have been contemplating “outing” myself as well. Still thinking about it.
March 23rd, 2009 at 9:57 pm
beautiful beautiful eye makeup! and beautiful eyes.